faithfolau
Registered: Feb 07, 2011
Posts: 5
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| | Feb 07, 2011 at 10:02 PM | Reply with quote | #1 |
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Sometimes I wonder how someone in my situation might deal with jealousy. My situations are very hard for me to speak about, but I feel the need to talk about it. Ever since, I had written and released my first book “The beginning to an end of a “Bad Girl”, my sister has been really showing me signs of I wouldn’t say jealousy but a bit of anger. I say anger only because of the facial expressions she makes when I say or when she finds out, I had accomplished something.
I honestly think that because she has been a young mother at a very young age. She finds all of my doings a bit of jealousy because I feel that she had plans for her life, she planned it around in the entertainment business, such as a fashion designer, or in an occupation around the lime light. No I’m not psychic but I can feel something when I start to put my carrier towards the entertainment side of, I can seriously feel like when ever she is around and it comes up, for example when someone give me a good review towards my work. In addition, she is there hearing and viewing people talk about my doings, whether it is good or bad, the point is I’m still getting attention, the attention she wanted as a kid and until now. I can really feel that.
There are always two sides of every story when it comes to a serious problem, and for me this is a warning because our relationship is going down south, everyday it is going deeper into the storm drain. Our loss of communication by stubbornness is taking us over. We have both of our personal things going on in our own lives, and that is why our pride is more concerned then our relationship as siblings. In addition, believe me I think that we both are very selfish and very uneducated to the law of sticking together as family, and I try to change that on many occasions almost every day. I cannot get through to her on forgetting what ever is going on, and we know, but as I mentioned earlier that pride is a big thing with her, and not with me. I could care less about pride and image, and self shine to the public.
I refused to appear to the public as a lie, and if someone reads and sees something on the internet, just ask, and I will tell you the truth. The same goes for my sister; she finds it very hard to come to a truth with her self. When she is around people I understand that some people want to be accepted in life to others, even if they have to tell a lie, and even if they have to blame someone rather than yourself. Failure in some angles in life is not an embarrassing thing, that’s what makes us all human.
I’m not saying that she likes to lie on other’s and keeps herself in an innocent light, but we have been siblings for all our lives, and who better knows each other than each other. We also have another sister and a brother, who grew up with a hard to understand single mother. I believe we all are in some ways disturbed by the way we grew up as children with our mother. In addition, I think that it is my duty to bring us all back together as soon as possible, no matter what and who thinks otherwise. I just do not feel like by me writing books will separate us due to no understanding because we cannot communicate. I am a person who give’s praise to all who succeed and even when they do not succeed. The thought of loving and caring is the name of my game.
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